God still loves you, and has great things planned for those who turn to him. The rewards of the tribulation saints are unique and special.
[Rev 3:19.9] As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.
Not going up in the rapture means that God is rebuking and chastening you, but He did it so that you would repent, and because He loves you.
[Heb 12:5.20] And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:
You have not missed out on receiving God's love. It is still open to ALL MEN (mankind).
As this next section of 14 scriptures shows:
Isaiah 45:23 I have sworn by myself, the word is gone out of my mouth
in righteousness, and shall not return, That unto me
every knee shall bow, every tongue shall swear.
Romans 14:11 For it is written, As I live, saith the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall confess to God.
John 1:7 The same came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all men through him might believe.
1Timothy 4:10 For therefore we both labour and suffer reproach, because
we trust in the living God, who is the Saviour of all
men, specially of those that believe.
Joel 2:28 And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out
my spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters
shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall
see visions:
John 12:32 And I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all men unto me.
Acts 17:31 Because he hath appointed a day, in the which he will judge
the world in righteousness by that man whom he hath
ordained; whereof he hath given assurance unto all men, in that he
hath raised him from the dead.
Joh 11:47 Then gathered the chief priests and the Pharisees a council,
and said, What do we? for this man doeth many
miracles.
Joh 11:48 If we let him thus alone, all men will believe on him: and
the Romans shall come and take away both our place and
nation.
1Samuel 17:46 This day will the LORD deliver thee into mine hand; and
I will smite thee, and take thine head from thee; and I
will give the carcases of the host of the Philistines this day unto
the fowls of the air, and to the wild beasts of the earth; that all
the earth may know that there is a God in Israel.
Isaiah 25:8 He will swallow up death in victory; and the Lord GOD will
wipe away tears from off all faces; and the rebuke of
his people shall he take away from off all the earth: for the LORD
hath spoken it.
[John 17:12] While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy
name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of
them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be
fulfilled.
[2Thess 2:3] Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall
not come, except there come a falling away first, and that
man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;
[2Thess 2:4] Who opposeth and exalteth himself above all that is called
God, or that is worshipped; so that he as God sitteth in
the temple of God, shewing himself that he is God.
Thus, it looks like there might be good scriptural evidence and support
for the idea that only one man will be lost and doomed
forever, the son of perdition, the AntiChrist.
You need to study the Bible, and you need to confess that Jesus is your Lord, and that you believe He was raised from the dead so that you might have salvation.
[Rom 10:9] That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus,
and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him
from the dead, thou shalt be saved. [Rom 10:10] For with the heart
man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth
confession is made unto salvation. [Mat 10:32] Whosoever therefore
shall confess me before men, him will I confess also
before my Father which is in heaven.
Start with John. That Book tells everyone that Jesus came to save
ALL men, particularly those who BELIEVE.
Then, read Revelation. That Book tells about the troubles the
world is about to face.
Then repent, and turn away, from all sin, and pray to the Father that Jesus will send the Holy Spirit to guide you to learn more, and to strengthen you in all ways.
But, you need to be warned! Satan is now coming, and will deceive all those who do not love the truth. He will proclaim that he is God, and will demand that all men worship him.
The Great Tribulation will last seven years!!!